A Leap of Faith

About 3 weeks ago I prayed the following…

Lord take me completely off of this world system because I desire to live completely in the Kingdom.

Lord I desire to live completely out of my spirit and come completely off of my flesh.

Lord I desire to live completely by faith and not by sight.

When I prayed those things I meant them whole heartedly I was so tired of relying on things of this world and reacting out of my flesh rather then my spirit. I desired to have the faith of Abraham, so I asked, not even thinking about how God would make those things happen, only knowing that I desired them. Well last Friday, God gave me exactly what I asked for, in a way that I did not expect…

Daryle (my hubby) and I were on the way to dinner, and we were driving a long and He started shaking His head and mumbling some stuff. I asked him what was wrong and he just shook his head and continued to mumble. I said, “Honey what is going on!” He turned slowly and looked at me, and I knew there was something that he was supposed to tell me that he didn’t want to. I told him to just spit it out. He said, “I can’t it’s so far out there. I don’t want to say it.” I continued to pursue him because I knew it was important, but at the same time there was a knot forming in my stomach, I knew it whatever it was, it was going to hit me hard. For a few more minutes he didn’t say anything, then he said, “There was something I was supposed to tell you two weeks ago, but I’ve been fighting it.” I said, “Ok, go ahead and tell me.” He said, “The Lord told me to tell you to quit your job.” As soon as he said it rang true in my spirit, but my flesh rose up and started freaking out.

At this point some of you might think, what! You didn’t hear it straight from God, it came from someone else’s mouth, man I wouldn’t listen to that! But in this situation, God had to use someone else to get me the message, I had been feeling it for a while, but every time something like that would pop in my mind I would dismiss it because I would start to think about provision, and how I couldn’t make it without a job, and all of this anxiety and worry would come upon me. So it did have to come from someone else plain as day, because I was blocking God’s attempts to get me the message. I couldn’t deny it when it came straight out of his mouth, and the Holy Spirit confirmed it in me at the same time. There was no way around it…

So at this point I start throwing a little fit, I was scared, and angry, and didn’t understand, but the Lord used him to really minister to me to help me understand. Then on the way back home, Daryle said, “Calm down Tracy, be quiet and listen, the Lord desires to speak to you right now.” So I settled down, closed my eyes, and started to listen. God started speaking to me about those prayers that I had asked. He told me that He was giving me everything that I desired. He said that to go to the level He desired to take me so that I could do the things He created me to do, I had to come off of relying on the world. He showed me how money and being provision minded had bound me and kept me tied down. He told me how much he loved me and gave me the scripture Psalm 37:25…yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread. He showed me how I could rest and be free because I didn’t have to worry about anything anymore. He would take all of that on Himself. He would take care of all my needs.

After the Lord ministered to me I felt so much better, and I felt freer, it was a great feeling. The next day I went into my job, worked the day preparing everything for my team, and then I told our store manager that the Lord had told me it was time to leave. He was so supportive and so awesome. It was so hard for me to leave because I love all the people there and the Lord had me really ministering to a lot of people, but I had to obey God. A lot of people there are mad at me right now, and some are confused, but the great thing about it all, is they all have the name of God on their tongues and they are starting to wonder about Him. That is what really matters to me, that people are touched, and drawn to God through my testimony. That those who are already believers, that their faith be taken to a new level because of my testimony. God has so many awesome things in store for all of us, and I just want each of you out there to be encouraged, listen to God! He is your provider, He is our source, He is everything, and even if you don’t understand the whys or the how’s just obey because He can’t and He won’t lead you the wrong way. I will continue to keep you all updated on what God is doing in my life, so you can see the goodness of the Lord through my story. God bless you!

Tracy Willey